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I wrote this song in the late 1990s in a band called Z is for Zillah with Doug Snyder and Wayne Wilburn (though I believe Alex Sarabia played bass on this recording).

Doug and Wayne have been working on some new songs of Doug’s and Wayne remembered liking this one. We’re discussing re-recording it, so I found this old version and figured out how to play it again!

Here are the lyrics and the guitar tab I posted to Ultimate-Guitar. Stay tuned for a new recording in the new year!

p.s. We named the band after the final entry in The Gashlycrumb Tinies by Edward Gorey:

Lyrics

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You're at class, I'm home on the couch with a bowl I just cached
The day's gray, there's a lot of hiss on the tape
my back aches from a series of days so full of mistakes
my jaw's tight from grinding my teeth in my sleep all night

It came time to take care of business, I was too nice and shy
I got fined everytime 'cause the print was too fine
Now I swear I can't leave the house for fear of fucking something else up
And this time I'll be lucky just to lose more money and more pride

I don't know what I was expecting, sure as hell ain't this
Someone put something in my milkshake, I guess that's what I get
For being such a little baby

Yes I'm fine, said I'm fine, don't ask all the time
Everytime my reflection goes by all's I see's warning signs
Why can't I stop rolling my eyes at my self-pitied cries
Cause I'm fine even if I'm preoccupied with revenge fantasy suicide

I don't know what I was expecting, it sure as hell ain't this
How'd we end up at this clambake?
I guess that's what I get
Every morning it's the same thing, fresh and dumb
Every night I'm resigned

So while You're at class, I'm home on the couch with a bowl I just cached
The day's gray, there's a lot of hiss on the tape
my back aches from a series of days so full of mistakes
my jaw's tight from grinding my teeth in my sleep all night

I don't know what I was expecting, sure as hell ain't this
You're one fucked up crabcake, but I love you yet
And you'll always be my baby

Guitar Tab

Tempo ~ 168 BPM

Tab from Ultimate-Guitar.

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G5 B5 C3
You're at class, I'm home on the couch with a bowl I just cached
G5 B5 C3
The day's gray, there's a lot of hiss on the tape
G5 D5 G5 B5
My back aches from a series of days so full of mistakes
C B F
my jaw's tight from grinding my teeth in my sleep all night

G5 B5 C3
It came time to take care of business, I was too nice and shy
G5 B5 C3
I got fined every time 'cause the print was too fine
G5 D5 G5 B5
Now I swear that I can't leave the house for fear of fucking something else up
C B F
And this time I'll be lucky just to lose more money and more pride

Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
I don't know what I was expecting
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
Sure as hell ain't this
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
Someone put something in my milkshake
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb
I guess that's what I get
Ebmaj7 Emaj7 F7 G
For being such a little baby

G5 B5 C3
Yes I'm fine, said I'm fine, don't ask all the time
G5 B5 C3
Every time my reflection goes by all's I see's warning signs
G5 D5 G5 B5
Why can't I stop rolling my eyes at my self-pitied cries
C5 B F
Cause I'm fine even if I'm preoccupied with revenge fantasy suicide

Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
I don't know what I was expecting
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
Sure as hell ain't this
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
How'd we end up at this clambake?
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb
I guess that's what I get

Ebmaj7 F7 A#
Every morning it's the same thing, fresh and dumb

Ebmaj7 F7 A#
Every night I'm resigned

Ebmaj7 Emaj7 F7 (X3) G5

G5 B5 C3
So while you're at class, I'm home on the couch with a bowl I just cached
G5 B5 C3
The day's gray, there's a lot of hiss on the tape
G5 D5 G5 B5
My back aches from a series of days so full of mistakes
C B F
my jaw's tight from grinding my teeth in my sleep all night

Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
I don't know what I was expecting
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
Sure as hell ain't this
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
You're one fucked up crabcake
Bbmaj7 Bb Eb Ebmaj7
but I love you yet
Ebmaj7 Emaj7 F7 G
And you'll always be my baby

This Pool Is Your Pool – Celebrating Stacy Pool’s 85th Year

Our neighborhood pool, Big Stacy, turns 85 this year and a bunch of folks gathered there to celebrate this morning. I was asked to sing, so I made a local version of Woody’s classic and sang it for the crowd.

This Pool Is Your Pool

This pool is your pool, this pool is my pool
From East Live Oak street to Travis Heights Elementary School
From East Side Drive to Alameda
This pool was made for you and me

As I went swimming with my mermaid daughter
We played for hours in the cooling water
Thank god we’ve got it as the summer gets hotter
This pool was made for you and me

In 1930 they built the first one
And then the Works Projects Administration
Made it bigger in ’37
This pool was made for you and me

This pool is your pool, this pool is my pool
From East Live Oak street to Travis Heights Elementary School
From East Side Drive to Alameda
This pool was made for you and me

Thanks to the city for keeping it open
Thanks to the lifeguards for keeping it going
Thanks to the water for keeping it flowing
This pool is maintained for you and me

This pool is your pool, this pool is my pool
From East Live Oak street to Travis Heights Elementary School
From East Side Drive to Alameda
This pool was made for you and me

750 Words – An Explanation

KeyboardAfter posting yesterday’s “750 Words – Just Type” I got an email from my mom asking, “You’re not having a nervous breakdown, are you?” So I thought it deserves a bit of explanation. No, I’m not going crazy. Here’s what it’s all about.

There’s a book called The Artist’s Way, that prescribes writing 750 words every day, just to clear your head and write. I like this challenge and take it from time to time when I go to make a journal entry and don’t know where to begin. I just write, freeform, often stream of consciousness, often in a dialogue with myself, using any method that motivates me to keep writing.

Yesterday, as I was trying unsuccessfully to stay focussed, I posted to Twitter and Facebook: “typing 750 words just to write… about all the reasons my fingers pause on the keys.” An friend from church in high school responded on Facebook: “That’s flippin hilarious, man. As usual, you stun me.” So instead of keeping my post private, as I usually do, I made it a public post, figuring I’m entertaining someone.

And just for the record, that bit about hating Buster Benson was tongue-in-cheek. I am jealous of the cool projects he starts, but he’s a inspiration. Buster started a site, 750words.com, to help facilitate and track this writing exercise. He’s managed to accomplish some really cool stuff building online communities. Check out his projects at Enjoymentland.

So I’m not crazy, and I don’t hate anyone, I just think it really valuable to write freeform once in a while, even if it scares your mom.

750 Words – Just Type

5:30 PM Sitting in the studio with the door and window open, zoning out to the birds twirlee deeing and chweep chweeping. Do we really need language to have thought? Maile and Anais went to run and swim and I stayed behind hoping to do some of this, thinking and writing.

I’m getting better at shutting off work and being unproductive when I need to just be with my girls or take some time off, like right now. It’s hard to know how much time to give yourself and when to prevent yourself from working on a weekend when you want to.

The goal of 750 words hangs over me now, now that I know that artists following the Artist’s Way do, and that Buster Benson does. He even gets a bunch of other people to do it. And now health month, the game. I hate that guy, he’s like me, but better.

Don’t stop, Jase. And quite hitting the backspace button. OK. The goal is not care if you make any typing mistakes for the next 600 words. I can do it. In fact lemme practice right now… adslij aave[appaj alj and aif out oaf all os dair ioj is i caisn ooo s-mopop qhut maoesyin oust os t fathwwn i caon do what nfo maon ha don beforrrrr.

Thaates kinda fcf ubn and hard. my instinct is to correct mysefl and i makkea lost os stupid mistakes especialy lwhne my finders arent’ on th theyboard. ok new experiement, expect im not stopping th old onw where i don’;t correct myself. but this one is just about how fast you can tyep coherent or at least barely coherent stuff. ok. go.

this is not toind so well from the beggining im; running out of things to think and skay nin stead of lacking the speed to ype it all. ok. so let me tyoe something that i already know, like onme of my songs. ok. go.

i wsa on my way to church one sunday morn
the sunwas bright and the weeather wats warm, th
the wintrer was over and i nedded my coat
the streetw were clear and the cars ran slow

there a clown breathed flame and ate the fire
dugled a knife a book and a tie
he called all the childrena d tave them all toys
sent them back to their paretns for coins

then i cam to the poet who spoke like a song
with words that were perfect and buigufilly long
he called all the children and gave them all toys
sent them back to their prtents for coins

then i came the one man band
who’d rigged up stifngs to every finder on his hang
and from a little dance and from a little song
came a chorus of strings and drums and gongns

then a little knelt and played on a pipe
a reel quick tune the Irish type
and two young brothers played violin
as their mother and father passed round the tin

This is preety hard and in don’t know if it helps to look at the screen at all, i must say. but what’s holding me up? finger speed and accuracy of course. but there are lots of pauses in my fingers that seem completely related to my mental pauses pawses. liek the one that just took me about ten seconds of zonign out.

HJmmm. So where does this leave us>? in thedark? no, practiced, at least. Closer tot he mythcial 750. But lest talk about the mythical 100 people that I can keep up with. And the posited 9 months after which serious relationship decay occurs if neglected. Let’s look at the numbers.

There are 365 day, divided between 100 people, is an average of thats contact with each 3.65 days a year, right? orami craxy/stupid?./ COnfession: I used a calculator to that simple simple division by 100. oh hwell.

That makes sense, though… contact each of your top 100 at least 3-4 times a year, or every 3-4 months. Now given that there’s a bell curve invlolved, that’s means they’res a bunch of people you see frequently and spend a lot of time with, and another bunch that you do’t contact but every 6-9 months too.

So is this supposed to be a conscious decision, or first just an observation of who you spend time with. Perhaps an audit is in order. Why don’t I revive my daily checklist and start with the question: who did you contact today? who did you have a real conversation with, no matter how brief? ok.

The Recipe

guitars-and-arrowsI’m hungry for my music to connect me to my people and lead me on an artistic adventure of song and service. So, to drive this metaphor into the ground, I need a recipe for a big wonderful meal so I can concentrate on following the directions and stop just snacking on junk food.

What am I talking about? The Plan. The discipline. I summed this up in Sat Morn,

I was sitting on the stump by the stream
Across from where I’ve been
I could see the rut I was in and how well worn
How I sit day after day
Dreamin bout the places I’ll play
Instead of finding ways to get it done…

I know that I need that plan
That details who I am
Defines the discipline to win the war,
To forget about my worst
Put out my best and bust onto the scene
Like the first one to be born.

So instead of optimistically shifting my focus to every shiny strategy that flies in front of me, I need to set my strategy down, get the help, input and feedback I need to correct it and stick to it so I can realize some modest goals.

Maile has started some helpful conversations with me this week employing all the methods that were used on her by her strategic growth consultant for ENGLISH @ WORK. Tomorrow evening we’ll begin to use this method to do for me what was done so well for her org to focus them on a plan. I can’t wait.