NEW SONG (DEMO): Begin Again

Begin Again

(recorded on my phone)

when,  at the end of a crazy day
I’ve got the nightmare on replay
god, what did I say?
forgive my sins
I need a gin
and to begin again

when, at the end of a disastrous  year
we all see the thing we fear
loud and clear
can I extend a hand?
manage to mend
and begin again

when, at the end of a life cut short
and I’m trying to protect my heart
and then a song come on
reminds me who’s gone
and I cannot comprehend
how to begin again

why’s it so hard to let go? (I’ll never forget)
how can I ever un-know? (what they’ve done to my head)
how can I move past the pain?
I am afraid
to begin again

when, at the end of a life so long
I’ve written my thousand songs
and they put me in the ground
still diggin my sounds
amen
I’m zen
begin again

NEW SONG (DEMO): Collapse

An ode to a few recently extinct mammals and a plea to value those that are not yet gone. They are us. Listen to Collapse on YouTube.

Collapse

The Eastern hare wallaby and
The Desert bandicoot
The White-footed rabbit-rat and
The Broad-faced potoroo

The Bulldog rat, the Bluebuck and
The Dusky flying fox
The Falkland Island wolf and
The Big-eared hopping mouse

The Madagascan pygmy Hippo and
The Christmas Island shrew
The Gloomy tube-nosed bat and
Goodfellow’s tree-kangaroo

The Sea mink and the Forrest ox and
The Relict leopard frog
The Caribbean monk seal and
The Utah prairie dog

Collapse, collapse
these creatures could not last
how long till we’re aghast?
Perhaps collapse

Collapse, collapse
and all of it forecast
let’s not be the last
before collapse

The Blue whale and the Fin whale and
The Wild water buffalo
The Ganges river dolphin and
De Winton’s golden mole

The Japanese Sea Lion and
The Lightning man triplefin
The Shortnose sucker, the Rhim gazelle and
The Philippine pangolin

The Giant crowned flying fox and
Père David’s deer
The Bluemask darter, the Hong Kong grouper and
The Idaho ground squirrel

The Jamaican monkey, the Large sloth lemur and
Emma’s giant rat
The Bornean ferret-badger and
Bokermann’s nectar bat

Collapse, collapse,
we’re falling and falling fast
and our head is up our ass
in this unsurpassed collapse

Collapse, collapse
and all of it forecast
let’s not be the last
before collapse

NEW SONG (DEMO): Bones

I supplied the title to the group for this week’s song – Bones – because I had just started teasing Maile singing this line: “My baby is boilin the bones, she’s got them in a pot what she found by the side of the road.” We laughed about it and it got stuck in our heads. She was singing it too, so I took my comedic tribute and made it a  funky celebration of Maile’s creative connection to the natural world and its healing powers.

Bones

My baby is boilin the bones
She’s got them in the pot what she found by the side of the road
My baby is boilin the bones
She can see the beauty in the things that nature shows

She’ll bind you up some sage and burn it
She’ll gather up rosemary and urn it
She got aromatherapies for you anxieties
My baby she will bring you earth’s bouquet

She’ll boil linden leaves for dreamin
She’ll steep some oat straw tea for soothin
She’ll brew tranquility, sip some harmony
She knows earth gives her medicines away

My baby is boilin the bones
She’s got them in the pot what she found by the side of the road
My baby is boilin the bones
She can see the beauty in the things that nature sews

She’ll use seed pod as a bead (and repeat it)
She’ll make a tincture with some weeds (and treat it)
She’ll turn salt into a scrub and make it smell like love
My baby she can use what nature gave

She’ll turn a bean pod into earings (can you hear it?)
She’ll make juniper into gin, my friend (can you cheers it?)
She’ll make your heart start seeing things as beings with feelings
My baby she can  see what nature say

My baby is boilin the bones
She’s got them in the pot what she found by the side of the road
My baby is boilin the bones
She can see the beauty in the things that nature codes

Is that a snakes spine? I don’t know!
Is that a skunk skull? Who can tell?
She found a turtle shell! How old was it?
She found an owl pellet! Let’s sift through it.

My baby is boilin the bones
She’s gonna paint em, mount em, adorn em and give them to her mom
My baby is boilin the bones
She can see the beauty in the things that nature grows
She can see the beauty in the things that nature throws
She can see the beauty in the things that nature knows

NEW SONG (DEMO): Anybody Else?

Gray invited me to join the song-a-week club with a small group of musicians. A title is proposed and everyone writes a song with that title. This week it was: Anybody Else?

Fall leaves on sidewalk with sneaker and paw

Anybody Else?

I’m been talking through my mask
Tryin to see through foggy glass
Anybody else tired of tying to see and be heard?

I’ve been taking lots of walks
Tryin to get out of my box
Anybody else diggin this life differed?

I’m givin up on all the news
Cuz it was givin me the blues
Anybody else lookin for someone that understands?

My forearms are always sore
From guitars and keyboards
Anybody else just thankful for their hands?

I feel like I’m gonna make it someday
But what if that day is today?
What if it’s never getting better?
I’m never gonna make a lota cheddar
I’m just so glad we’re still together
Anybody else woulda been long gone

I’ve been wanderin round the yard
Lookin kinda avant-garde
Anybody else walking the dog in your robe?
(How’d it get in your robe?)

I’m seeing concerts on the lawn
Dreamin a stage to put them ’em on
Anybody else wanna be in the show?

One day I’m gonna make it all come true
Summer livin somewhere warm with you
Sailin away for a season, forgettin about all this treason
Until then we’re gonna power through

I feel like I’m gonna make it someday
But what if that day is today?
What if it’s never getting better?
I’m never gonna be a trendsetter
I’m just so glad that we are still together
Anybody else woulda just moved on

I feel like I’m gonna make it someday
But what if that day is today?
What if it’s never getting better?
All of my prayers are dead letters
I’m just so glad that we are still together
Anybody else would be sick of my songs

NEW SONG: Coward In Chief

I’ve been singing little protest songs to my self for the past few years. I idolize Dylan, Guthrie, Seeger, so this is only natural. But when I read the headline this week — The White House Goes Dark — I did a double-take.

Could a headline be more poetically descriptive of this presidency? I felt I had been handed a perfect chorus for a protest song. And since it was news, I made the verses a report of this incredible week’s unfolding, the context of the White House going dark.

What a week. The national and international outrage at George Floyd’s murder and everything that has followed is like a colossal dam breaking. I hope my song report does it justice.

Coward In Chief

George Floyd was murdered by Minnesota cops
And the people are marching, enough is enough
Four hundred years and finally phones
Have shown the white folks what black folks have known

This country was built and is ever so
For white folks to go where we want to go
But if you are black there is no safe space
A cop might just kill you for the look on your face

And the laws are set up and a jury will find
He was doing his job, he will be reassigned
Just blame a black man for being a thug
Say he resisted, he must be on drugs

But how many times can we stomach this shit?
We’re crying Bullshit on these old hypocrites!

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
The old patriarch
Is busy gaslighting

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
Hating and berating
Stoking petty infighting

But peaceful protesters are flooding downtowns
Marching together black, white and brown
Trying to salvage what can be saved
Of our poor nation’s soul, so long enslaved

Still others are looting and cops are still shooting
And why does it seem like they’re all colluding
To take down the ones whose civility
Make peace and justice a possibility

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
Retreating and tweeting
Violence inciting

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
Tweeting, retweeting
Inciting rioting

And his staff say Do Something but he has no idea
How to do anything but spread lies and fear
He cannot help, has nothing to bring
So it’s back to his bunker like a cowardly king

And his party is silent as he drags us all down
Dividing and cheating and pushing the bounds
Everything part of his constant campaign
To break down the country for his personal gain

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
Retreating and tweeting
Violence inciting

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
Democracy is dying
Putin is smiling

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
But the people are marching
United and crying

And the White House goes dark
The president is hiding
He’s afraid of the people
Cause he sees them uniting
Afraid of the people
Cause he sees them abiding
Afraid of the people
Cause he sees The Uprising

COVER: And It Stoned Me (4/20 version)

Happy 4/20 from Austin, Texas! I cut out of work a little early today to lay down this old Van Morrison favorite in honor of 4/20/2020. If you couldn’t tell, I’m keepin it weird, dressed as a pack of M&Ms in Maile’s sunglasses (over my glasses).

New Song: Singing To Myself

J MolinSinging To Myself

Have you ever sung Twinkle Twinkle Little Star to a kiddo at bedtime?

Almost every night for the last 10 years Maile and I have taken turns singing to Anais at bedtime. It’s such a sweet ritual that I can hardly believe she still allows it much less requests it. But it still works its magic, on her and on us.

Sleeping Princess by g’ma Lil.
A lot of lovies
A lot of lovies

Sitting at her bedside singing softly, star-shaped night-light projected around, stuffed animals looking back in cozy bunches, we’re wrapped in lullaby land’s peaceful completeness and the noisy world is silent for a moment until we tiptoe out.

Maile does a much better job than I do with her gorgeous renditions of Sweet Baby James or Teddybear Picknick. I, on the other hand, am always trying to remember some obscure tune and forgetting the lyrics, humming some improvised ending.

Cloud snuggie
Cloud snuggie

One night a few months ago I was making up this song as Anais fell asleep. It was such a perfect, full moment that I couldn’t stand the thought of letting it slip away, forgotten.

But of course, she is moving on as I am trying to hold on, and this story ends the way it does every evening, Anais asleep, me, singing to myself.

Dad and daughter at Gorman Falls
Dad and daughter at Gorman Falls

Singing To Myself

I’m sitting here singing to you as you fall asleep
Imaginin’ what you’ll be like when you’re old like me
Just maybe you will have a kid you’re singing to
Just maybe you will be thinking all of these things too

How can I hold on, how can I hold as you fall asleep?
How can I hold on, how can I hold to a moment so sweet?
And I’m left here singing to myself

And as you sing I’ll be punchin up my seventies
What hope have I for still holding to this memory?
How can I tie a ribbon round a breath of air?
How can I save this moment like a lock of hair?

How can I hold on, how can I hold on as I watch you sleeping?
How can I hold on, how can I hold on to something so fleeting?
And I’m left here singing to myself

Time, damn time, keeps rollin on
But I wouldn’t want to stay anywhere too long
Cause I know you got to go and good things go wrong
When you don’t let them grow beyond the garden wall

So I get up, and tiptoe out into the hall
And take it in, one more time before my curtain call
Try to hold on and it’s already gone
Grab my guitar and try remembering my song

How can I hold on, how can I hold on and make it last longer?
I cannot hold on, so I write this song, make a memory stronger
I cannot hold on, I cannot hold on, I’m falling headlong for her
And I’m left here singing to myself

Sunday Singalong at Barton Springs, Sept. 29, 2019

We had a wonderfully breezy balmy morning at Barton Springs this morning. A few new families found us so there were babies sleeping and kids running around to make it even sweeter.

J's Sunday Singalong Songbook w cup of coffee in the sun on the grass

Sunday Singalong Set

  1. Across The Universe p.4
  2. With A Little Help From My Friends p.14
  3. Let It Be p. 8
  4. Tomorrow Never Knows p. 13
  5. Blowin In The Wind p. 20
  6. Mr. Tambourine Man p. 23
  7. Outside
  8. What’s So Funny Bout Peace Love and Understanding? p. 30
  9. Imagine p. 31
  10. Spirits In The Material World p. 41
  11. Morning Has Broken p. 48
  12. Lean On Me p. 55
  13. A Place In The Sun p. 53

J leading singalong group w Barton Springs behind